Steve Martin said ‘Through the years, I have learned that there is no harm in charging oneself up with delusions between moments of valid inspiration’. Today was one those days. As I write the next episodes of Mellowing (our comedy web series) I am in delusion overdrive.
The dream is to make something that does not survive on laughs alone. Not that we don’t love laughs. Quite the opposite- we do love laughs. We want mystery and twists and turns and all the rest. On top of that we will try to make it as funny as possible.
Right now though I don’t exactly feel capable of the task in hand. As with most things you attempt creatively I’ve never really done this before. I’ve talked about it a lot and I’ve watched pretty much every film from the genre. I just don’t know if I have the ability to create a story with that level of excitement or narrative drive.
But for some reason you just keep going. It’s a weird superpower to have. The ability to be hyper self critical whilst simultaneously utterly deluding yourself into thinking you’re an undiscovered genius. It’s not even as if those modes alternate, taking a day or so each. Both personalities are present constantly!